Currently listening to: Haven by Nova Amor
In another life,
when we had our water cut off
people asked (ever helpful)
Well, do you buy coffee
or make your own?
as if denying myself
a $2 cup of coffee once a week
would have paid the water bill.
If only they knew how
those paper cups of coffee (handed to me
under the dim, comforting lights of the cafe
the hushed murmur of voices
the chair's crackled leather seat
cool on bare Texas legs)
were one of the only things that
made me feel human
after having to leave the
five-dollar package of dishrags
back on the shelf at the supermarket
because to buy them felt too indulgent.
Now I buy paper cups of coffee
whenever it suits me
but only recently have I allowed myself
to buy the flowers.
It feels decadent
like asking for another slice of chocolate cake
or staying out late with a friend
without paying attention to the time.
There's so much I could say
about things like fresh coffee and fresh flowers,
but I will start with:
when it's hard to go to bed at night
because you know you'll have to wake up
to another day full of hard things
it's okay to do the little things
that makes you feel human.
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